LYRICS FROM LAST NIGHT

This
White Feather
Sky Dancer
Smile
If All Else Fails
Meant To Fall
Runnin Away
Remind Me
Wind & Rain
Fool
Brand New
Insane

THIS
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

I can’t wait and I can’t explain
‘Cause I’m torn between the lines of joy and pain
But I’m wholly inside
Still I’d give what is mine
Here I’m waiting so
Not wanting to let go

But I’m still on the ground
My feet are in my shoes if I’m still looking around

The lonely hour carries on
Aching in my need for you when brief turns long
I’m afraid of disbelief, that “can I trust here what I feel”
Like I’m flying blinded by the light
And my eyes like my heart have lost their sight

Something to believe in
All I have is this
Something we are needing
All I want is this

I sit free, just call me out
Like a monument of patience I’d smile at grief
’cause I have no doubt
It’s on your face like in a dream but I’m awake
Can I hold the truth in faith or deny my heart and float away

WHITE FEATHER
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

What I’m looking for
Is a white feather from a black bird
What I’m looking for
Is a harsh tone from a kind word

Nor she or I have seen the light in miles of stone
And I have been not of a cloudless time in ruin
I have conquered what my battles I have chose

To cry out, to scream
To wake in the darkness,
Be slain in the night
I listen, I dream
Surrender to the harshness,
Be saved to the light

I feel a weight of sadness lifting to the sky
Yet all my powers not yet winged versed to fly
Here this woman may I bless her with her crows
I ask but of truth of heart through tattered clothes

I cry out, I scream
To make truth in the light
See the sun straight through its wings
To be called, to be seen
Give faith to the watcher
Heed what he brings

What I’m looking for
Is a white feather from my black bird
What I’m looking for
Is a heart’s song in a whisper

SKY DANCER
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

She dances ‘cross the skies
She came down onto the mountain
She dances and then she lies down and
Springs up her own fountain

And I can’t believe she noticed
And I can’t believe she cares
I don’t know what to think
But I know what it is that scares me

She came down into the caverns
She found me in the darkness with her owl eyes
She came down into the taverns
She found me in my whiskey and my humble pies
And I feel like life is a daydream
And I can’t remember awake
Something’s different than it’s always been
So I give her my heart to break

She leads me out to pasture
Her nourishment that feeds my soul
Love’s growing faster and faster
On grasses that comfort and console
And I’m finally ready to hurt no more
Surrender myself to her
I’m comforted by the fact I’ve known her before
And just like me she’s scared and unsure

She dances ‘cross the sky
She came down onto the mountain
She dances and then she lies down and
Springs up her own fountain

SMILE
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

‘Scuse me mister do you know who I am?
‘Scuse me mister do you know who this is?
Now I wish you could see…

Pardon me sir would you like some coffee
Would you like to sit down and have a talk with me

You don’t remember do you?
Oh what you didn’t do
You don’t see what I go through
You have never seen me smile

‘Scuse me mister you dropped this piece of paper
You turn away from me as you give me a dollar bill
Like that’s supposed to make up for it all
Like that’s supposed to solve it and I’ll forgive you
Pardon me sir you forgot your change
You say what a sweet thing but you don’t know the half of it

‘Scuse me mister you forgot about me
‘Scuse me mister you forgot to love me
Now I know I’m broken in more ways than I can count
Pardon me sir I can’t forgive you for leaving
Please listen to what I’m saying please don’t leave me again

IF ALL ELSE FAILS
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

I’ve been at the end of my rope
And I’m afraid that my margin of error’s gone
But I’m justified in my somber hope
To just tie a knot in the frayed end and hold on

If all else fails,
Could it be that I’ll be here tomorrow
If all else fails,
Will I have the strength to give and receive
If all else fails,
Could it be that I’ll live through the sorrows
If all else fails,
Could it be that I could just be

I’m tired of this waiting game
Feeling more like an injury that lingers on and on
But in my efforts to restore rather inflame
I just want to heal enough to carry on

I know it’s a journey
I’ll grow even if it hurts me
I’ll carry on, it’ll give me power
I have faith in the dawn to rise far longer
It’ll make me stronger

MEANT TO FALL
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

The turns the world’s taking in hatred and greed
You’d think we’d all open our eyes
While big multinationals pay to mislead
And governments move to tyrannize
So night after night we convene and conform
To gather ‘round our TVs
We sit in a trance while high figures perform
Ill acts of diplomacy

It’ll fall ‘cause we don’t do what we’re meant
Grow in love like we should
But our people pretend
So it’s misunderstood
That through their eyes we’re weak and small
But we all could stand tall
But you know it’s all meant to fall

Newly revived with a terrorist’s bomb
Our many young soldiers deployed
And soon we’ll all live under martial law
Our lives and our freedom will be destroyed
So gladly we go to fight a futile fight
And die in vane on the battlefield
So many deceived to think they do what is right
But the wound of death cannot be healed

As rich grow in power and become wealthier
We turn poor subjugated prisoners
We let ‘em take over and rule the whole world
Our economy’s an interest-bearing massacre
As time passes by through our complacency
Unknowingly owed an apology
We forfeit out rights to live in captivity
Blind and bound in patriotic poverty

So the message I sing in the words of this song
Is that truth cannot be counterfeit
We’re linked in a bond to whom we all belong
Our love is strong if we’d only salvage it
So the bankers may have all the gold
Trained killers may have all the guns
But we have our love in the banks of our souls
So let us not be the frightened ones

RUNNIN AWAY
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

A thought long ago when it was a weary night
A kind of feeling like you were gone in spite
So you drove your car out to Vantage and slept in the back seat
Then you came back in the morning and laid down right beside my feet

I said what gave the crazy idea
That you could make it
Far enough away that you could
Leave it all behind and just fake it?

Apart from the rain it’s been clearest days I’ve seen
But the more you explain that shady grey
The more I don’t know what you mean
So you’re cashing in your credits pleading ‘Baby don’t you see?’
That we’re falling apart here being something
But I’m all that’s left I can be

You said what gave you the stupid idea
That home is where the heart is?
‘Cause living doesn’t always keep you smiling
And sometimes that’s where it’s the hardest

So count me in if you’re runnin’ away
‘Cause I’m caught up here, don’t wan to stay
It’s been too long since I had me a happy tune
But it’s destined to improve

So the mileage ticks by your sullen face I can’t discern
But my heart can’t decide to let go and I’m afraid I’ll never learn
So you flip a bitch mid-highway & you do it my way
And you take me back home
But the answer’s not there concretely and you ask not so
Discretely if I want you to leave me alone

I said what gave you the senseless idea
That I could ever live without you?
‘Cause too many times before we’ve gone down
Paths where I thought I was about to
Then you said what gave you the silly idea
That I want to leave you behind?
And I smiled ‘cause I know it don’t matter ‘cause
We’re both the wandering kind

I know I’m going the hard way through
But it’s planned that way, ain’t nothing new
So pardon my sincerity
When I say I’m bound to leave

REMIND ME
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

Before too long you won’t find comfort here
Who would’ve thought you would still count on her
Don’t make a sound, just leave the bedroom clear
Forget we had that moment’s greatest fear

And I will stand outside your hand and
Leave the door behind me
Never to remind me

It might be great if somehow you came through
Admit you strayed, just only if she knew
Can’t understand what causes you to do
To reprimand such faults are found in you

And when you’ve finally recalled
That I was already gone
And by the time you’d finally realized
I was much more than you could ever recognize

So one day you found that I slipped right through your grasp
I was all spun around, a tornado in fields of grass
Can you regress and tell me what you really meant
Or must I confess, you’re not really heaven sent

WIND & RAIN
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

The flow and ebb of tide
The flow inside me stirs
And the waters reach the shores as if
The rains have poured and hurled
And I can’t escape the fact of elegance
That the fight and the fray
Is just another part of me
And the ocean agrees

We are of the same
All part of a kind of rain
In the rest, the silence has to fall
In the wind, the same, we all

Calling out to sky
The heaven’s eye, I breath
And the air embraces me
As I look to clarity
I’ll be carried off by heaven’s song
And as I soar I see
Both the wind and the rain
Just like a hurricane

I’ve motioned to the distant mount
I’ve learned, I’ve found
That the angels watching me
Have counted on my need
And the storms that we live
Just as we take and we give
Such as we wax and we wane
Such is the wind and the rain

FOOL
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

It’s just a picture, it’s just a game
But I don’t even want to play
‘Cause it won’t ever be the same

One of these days I’m going to have to break it to you
That the stones of the earth don’t crumble under your feet
When it comes back around you don’t really make it do you
So you cover your head that gone asunder and beat

Can’t you just let it be
Can’t you just be free
I don’t know you anymore
What the hell are you looking for?

It’s just a picture,
It’s just a game
But I don’t even want to play ‘cause it won’t ever be the same
I’ve been your patience
I’ve been your cool
But now I’ve pulled away the mask and I’ve left you as the fool
You are

Understand me when I say I cared
I have no illusions, I have regrets
But whether all honesty’
s thrown away or spared
I say what I feel, be it sooths or upsets

I can’t keep on picking up slack
Get off my back
Get back up off the floor
What the hell are you waiting for?

BRAND NEW
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

Can you fake a scar with truth?
Can you break a star can you?
Can you take apart a loop?
Can you make a heart brand new?

The sinking stones inside my bones
I’m thinking only of the phone calls we had
God only knows my sorrow
I’m got lonely woes that follow keeping me sad
But what did I have?

Can you save yourself
From the dying well?
Can you hollow out yourself
Like a ringing bell?

Can’t understand this grief but then
I’ll someday stand beside and lend you a hand
My crazy heart, this cave of mine
I’m maybe caught beyond the line I began
But what now do I have?

Can you fake a scar with truth?
Can you break a star can you?
Can you take apart a loop?
Can you make a heart brand new?

INSANE
© Copyright Angela Reed 2003

No one ever knows what it is when you hide it
No one ever knows what you’re thinking in your little brain
No one ever realized that you’re ruthless and cruel when their eyes are shut
No one ever understood you went insane

No they are never what you wanted
Who says they ever wanted you
I would’ve never shared this with you
If you wouldn’t have blamed somebody else

I forget the times when they said that they loved you
I don’t remember how that it is they changed their minds so fast
No one feels more than sympathy for your childish games
No one wants your childish games

No they are never what they seemed
Who says they ever told you truth
I couldn’t ever share this with you
What you wouldn’t hear, what you never knew

I won’t ever know what it was that you wanted
You could never tell or explain what gave your soul away
You could never realize you were playing the fool
That they were laughing at you
But no one ever understood you went insane